Happiest belated birthday Maitri aka Chotuuu. God Bless You.
Everyone of us goes through a phase in life which makes you get a step closer to the thing you aspire in your heart. A phase that is unexplained coz' its a state of trance. A perpetual state when the heart wants a thing but the mind rejects it out right. I am passing through this phase. This phase is tricky, logical & analytical. The tranced phased leads to the clash of heart and mind at every moment.
I came across a series of moments today when I felt that, the world takes me for granted. Is it really my fault when the people around, takes me for granted?? How is it possible for a selfless guy to make sure he is not taken for granted?? Or has the world really taken me for granted? Help me here. After a long philosophical introspection, I conclude it's not practical.
You love something and you go behind it from your heart but you find out it's not yours. You stay positive and you wait until you find out that it's lost forever. The hope dies leaving behind a single ray which lets your heart pumping for a second chance. Rarely does someone get a second chance and I am lucky. I got it. Happily accepting the second chance, I run behind it again with all the hopes to find out it's gone again, forever. This leads to this unexplained state of trance. Its a WTF moment. This time that single ray vanishes too *sigh* Its tough to keep fighting for the one thing you really like but that's how it is, LIFE. With an ambiguous decision of learning how not to express, the path starts. A path which is unknown to me for 21 years. Seems impossible to walk on but shall give it a try. Expressing leads to a tension free state but it burdens you with hurt, a lot of hurt. A perplexed state defined when the heart cries to express and mind shouts not too. Both looks correct at their respective places. What to implement?
There was a moment today when I decided too only focus on my career, personality, photography and writing. A decision taken by mind which somewhere is over powered by heart. Another perpetual state which cannot be explained. A list of such moments leads to such trance. A list that needs to be sorted and analyzed for getting me out of this scary state.
I can also put the above thoughts as, "__________________"; UNEXPRESSED WORDS.
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